Turkey nightscape. Taken by Tunc Tezel (via twanight).

Akhir-akhir ini jadi sering berangkat ke kampus pagi banget, pulang malem banget. Dan dalam perjalanan pulang-pergi ini, sering banget kepala menengok ke atas, mengecek apakah langit cerah dan ada satu-dua bintang di atas. Bersyukur banget akhirnya tinggal di Bandung, bintangnya masih keliatan. Apalagi kalo udah di atas jam sembilan malam. Dari yang awalnya hanya terlihat satu-dua bintang, lama-lama ada kerlipan bintang yang lain. Makin malam, makin banyak kerlipan bintang. Gue senang.

Saking sukanya gue ngeliat langit malam, bahkan waktu diklat malam, gue masih sempet curi-curi melongok ke atas (maaf ya komandan). Waktu kumpul di Lap. Sipil, gue sempet ngeliat ke atas. Langitnya ceraaaah banget. Bulannya terang, bintangnya juga lumayan banyak. Waktu di Lap. Basket, langitnya masih sama, bulannya masih terlihat terang, bintangnya juga ngga ketutup awan. Jadi kalo udah capek berdiri, ganti posisi berdirinya sambil curi-curi liat ke atas hahah (sekali lagi maaf komandan!)

Pulang ke Jakarta, gue berharap bisa ngeliat langit yang sama. 'Berharap' yaaa meski gue tau kayaknya ngga mungkin, hahah. Seinget gue selama belasan taun gue tinggal di Jakarta, bintangnya ngumpet terus, ngga banyak.

Di Jakarta, yang sering gue liat justru kerlipan yang lain. Kerlipan artifisial. Entah dari menara pemancar, pesawat terbang, gedung-gedung perkantoran, sampai lampu sorot. Tapi sejak beberapa bulan yang lalu, harapan gue bisa melihat bintang banyak di langit atas rumah gue semakin pupus.... sejak sebuah mall yang deket banget sama rumah gue masang LED super jumbo, panjang, dan terang banget. Terangnya LED itu bahkan masih keliatan sampai jalan masuk ke komplek rumah gue. Tiap malem jadi berasa ada konser di deket rumah (soalnya mirip-mirip lighting konser).

Ya mungkin pemasangan LED ini semacam terobosan baru, strategi marketing, karya inovatif dari pihak manajemen mall. Karena sebenernya ya emang kok tampilan LED ini keren! Bahkan LED milik mall ini tercatat di Guinness World Records untuk kategori The World Largest Illuminated Facade. Mall ini langsung menjadi ikon DKI Jakarta. Sebuah prestasi yang patut diapresiasi.

The giant LED ini satu dari sekian banyak sumber cahaya penerang malam Jakarta. Semakin banyak ornamen penerang malam terinstal di kota ini. Bahkan mungkin sudah terlalu banyak, berlebihan. Sampai akhirnya menutup milyaran lampu yang telah alam berikan secara cuma-cuma kepada kita. Bintang-bintang itu tersembunyi, cahayanya kalah.

Banyak dari kita lupa, kurang arif, kurang bijak. Kita lupa menahan diri, berhenti dulu sejenak dan berfikir, saat dalam perjalanan mengembangkan teknologi paling maju. Semakin jauh teknologi kita di depan, semakin jauh pula diri kita dari alam. Takut sama kegelapan itu salah satu sifat dasar manusia. Tapi butuh cahaya seterang apa agar kita bisa tenang?

Polusi cahaya ini bukan hal sepele. Jarang dibicarakan orang jika dibandingkan dengan polusi udara, tanah, atau air, tapi efeknya sama nyatanya. It only takes two minutes of your time to watch this video and realize that sometimes we do need to turn off the lights.

Mungkin karena dari kecil gue suka dibeliin buku-buku tentang alam semesta, gue suka melihat langit. Entah langit siang atau langit malam. Mimpi besar gue adalah melihat langsung lengan Bima Sakti terbentang di langit malam. Keinginan kecil gue yang sebenarnya mudah terkabulkan, adalah menikmati malam bertabur bintang. Entah sambil main-main, sekedar lagi di perjalanan, atau apakek. Udah, itu aja. Tapi sayang, belasan tahun tinggal di kota, jadi jarang melihat bintang. Selama ini hanya beberapa kali aja ngeliat langit malam bagus banget, itupun waktu lagi di desa-desa.

Kemarin malam baru aja gue ke sebuah desa di Demak. Jalanannya masih kecil, sempit, dan hanya ada sedikit penerangan. Bagi gue yang terbiasa dengan terangnya kota, desa itu gelap. Lalu gue melihat ke atas, dan setelah sekian lama, gue akhirnya melihat langit yang cerah, cerah sekali. Bintang-bintang -tak terhitung jumlahnya, bertaburan menemani bulan sabit dan anak-anak desa yang lagi asik main kembang api. Damai.

Kita selama ini menyalakan lampu saat malam agar tidak gelap, tapi kita gak sadar kalau sebenarnya alam pun sudah menyediakan lampu bagi kita. Banyak. Gratis. Coba yuk, matikan sebagian lampu-lampu yang gak terlalu penting waktu malam hari. Lalu tengok ke atas, disana ada apa. Sepotong semesta yang bisa kita lihat di langit malam sebenarnya pengingat bahwa kita ini kecil. Semesta sudah ramai, bahkan tanpa kita. Alam yang besar. Apalagi Sang Penciptanya. Subhanallah.

Selamat berpuasa ya, teman-teman. Mohon maaf lahir dan bathin :)

Jadi sekarang salah satu hal yang lagi hits di kampus gue adalah OSKM. Belom mulai OSKM nya, tapi persiapannya. Gue sendiri sekarang sedang ikut diklat divisi tata tertib kelompok (taplok) setelah sebelumnya ikut diklat terpusat (meski bolong-bolong :p). Gue ikut diklat terpusat awalnya karena ada perintah wajib ikut diklat terpusat dari himpunan prodi. Tapi udah sampe diklat terpusat, masa sih berhenti sampe situ aja, sayang ah. Lanjut deh sampe diklat divisi.

Tapi kenapa pilih taplok? Banyak alasan kenapa gue pengen jadi taplok, tapi motivasi awal gue sebenernya karena pengalaman dan impresi yang gue dapet sebagai peserta OSKM ITB 2012 tahun lalu. Pas dulu gue ikut OSKM, euforia sebagai mahasiswa baru itu masih berasa banget. Rasanya memegang titel sebagai mahasiswa itu bangga banget deh. Apalagi alhamdulillah bisa jadi mahasiswa di kampus idaman. Excited. Penasaran. 

Pas OSKM, gue belom fasih sama daerah kampus. Emang sih gue udah sempat ikut kegiatan matrikulasi fakultas sekitar sebulan, tapi tetep aja masih belom kenal banget gue sama kampus. Nah di OSKM nih, gue 'dikenalkan' sama kampus; budayanya, mahasiswanya, gedung-gedungnya, semuanya. Hari pertama OSKM, impresi awal gue adalah wiiih warna-warni banget ini Sabuga, hahah. Secara waktu itu kita disambut sama sekelompok banyak orang yang pake baju warna-warni -sepengelihatan gue ada biru, putih, merah pada saat itu, tapi setelah lama muncul warna-warna lain: hitam, hijau... Sementara kita, para maba lugu, masih pakai seragam SMA dan mengenakan jaket almamater. Gak lama setelah itu, kita juga melihat ada sederetan orang (kece) di lantai atas Sabuga yang mengibarkan bendera-bendera. Gue awalnya gak tau itu bendera apa hahah, yang gue tau adalah, itu keren! Dan ternyata itu adalah bendera tiga divisi lapangan: taplok, medik, dan keamanan.

Nah gue jadi tau lebih banyak tentang acara OSKM ini ketika interaksi sama taplok! Wihi! Gue kelompok 50! Langsung deh taplok-taplok gue dengan senang hati menjadi teman dan mentor kami selama OSKM. Merekalah yang pertama kali cerita ke kami, bagaimana sih kemahasiswaan di ITB, apa itu himpunan, apa itu KM-ITB, kayak apa mahasiswa ideal, dll. Mereka yang pertama kali cerita ke kami pengalaman pribadi mereka sebagai mahasiswa di ITB, gimana pergaulannya, gimana kegiatan akademiknya, dll. Mereka yang pertama kali menjadi teman kami. Nggak salah kalau dibilang taplok adalah keluarga pertama maba, because they really behaved as our own family. Tiap malem ngecek kita udah sampe kos apa belom, sakit apa enggak. Yaa mungkin, mungkiiiin, mereka melakukan itu karena memang tugas taplok seperti itu. Tapi gue yakin kok taplok gue (dan sebagian besar dari mereka) beneran care... (iya kan, Kak?!) Nah ini, salah satu kenapa gue tertarik menjadi taplok!

Gocap!

Selain taplok, ada dua divisi lapangan lain yang gue tau, keamanan dan medik. Divisi taplok namanya adalah Jaya Kirana, divisi keamanan adalah Agnibrata, dan divisi medik adalah Sandya Samana. Yang sering gue lihat dari medik dan keamanan adalah kerja mereka itu mengawal kita saat mobilisasi. Bedanya, keamanan itu mengawal sambil bilang "FOKUS YA MBAK, DIPERCEPAT, TEMPEL DEPANNYA!" sementara kalau medik bilangnya "Adek, kalo nggak kuat keluar dari barisan aja, ya". Alhamdulillah gue gak pernah ke medik waktu itu dan gak pernah kena masalah juga sama keamanan. Jujur ya menurut gue keamanan itu emang kece banget, apalagi dengan baju warna merahnya. Tapi udah ketauan pasti diklatnya menguras tenaga banget deh haha. Medik yang gue kira diklatnya lebih jinak daripada keamanan, ternyata sama beratnya -bahkan mungkin lebih berat! Semangat deh ya untuk kita semua!

Balik ke ingatan gue tentang OSKM. Selama OSKM, kita banyak dikasih materi kemahasiswaan oleh taplok. Sejujurnya ya gue kira materi ini ya.... materi. Untuk kita ketahui, pahami, dan harapannya diaplikasikan. Yang gue gak tau ya kalo ternyata setelah itu akan ada tes! Tes akhir!! Dan nggak tanggung-tanggung yaa yang ngetes itu adalah... *jeng jeng jeng* massa kampus. He eh. Massa kampus, dengan jaket himpunan dan unitnya masing-masing. Sejujurnya gue deg-degan banget, karena gue belom pernah berinteraksi dengan orang sebanyak itu, di forum sebesar itu, dan meski gue sudah berusaha memahami materi sebaik-baiknya, nggak ada jaminan lidah gue gak kelu saat ditanyai massa kampus nanti. 

Jeng jeng, waktu interaksi pun telah tiba. Dan dari segala posisi gue pas banget lah barisnya di ujung kanan paling depan! Banyak yang bilang justru di baris paling depan itu aman, tapi apa iya? Makin nervous lah gue waktu datang segerombolan orang yang memakai jaket warna-warni -jaket himpunan. Satu warna menandakan satu himpunan. Kalo di Sabuga gue tercengang sama warna-warninya panitia, sekarang gue takjub ngeliat begitu banyak lagi warna-warna yang ada: variasi warna biru dari biru dongker sampai biru laut dan langit, warna merah dari merah maroon sampai merah terang, warna hitam dan putih, sampai warna kuning. Taplok gue udah ceritain gue tentang himpunan di ITB itu kayak gimana, tapi ngeliat versi nyatanya dalam skala besar kayak gini bener-bener bikin gue takjub hahah. Sebegitu pluralnya loh kampus ini. Arogansi himpunan yang santer terdengar bukan gak mungkin beneran ada. Karena ini benar-benar plural, berbeda, dan gue terkesan karena di OSKM ini, gue melihat segala perbedaan ini bersatu.

Dipimpin moderator, forum dibuka. Sesi tanya jawab -lebih tepatnya massa kampus bertanya dan kami menjawab- berlangsung. Gue sendiri sempat angkat tangan mencoba menjawab, eh nggak kena. Hehe lega juga sih :p Sebenernya pertanyaannya standar, nggak melenceng dari materi, tapi tetep aja kesan gue terhadap mereka itu wow banget jadi bawaannya tegang, hahah. Dan mereka bicaranya tegas, padat, jelas. Dan ekspresi wajahnya... ya gitu, hahah.

Gak cuma interaksi dengan massa kampus yang bikin wow. Orasi danlap juga wow. Gue gak terbiasa mendengar orasi danlap, bahkan kayaknya itu pertama kalinya buat gue.

"DUA RIBU DUA BELAS. TUTUP MATA. TUTUP TELINGA. DAN TUNDUKKAN KEPALA KALIAN!"

Kalo danlap udah memberi komando seperti itu, semua nurut. Setelah beberapa saat, akan ada komando lagi untuk membuka mata dan telinga, dan menegakkan kepala kami. Biasanya yang terjadi adalah pergantian tokoh yang berdiri di depan kami. Misalnya tadi danlap apa, sekarang danlap apa. Namanya juga orasi, pasti lantang, keras, kencang. Khas banget ya, nada orasi itu. Inti dari orasi danlap itu sebenarnya ya nggak lain mengingatkan kalau kita ini udah mahasiswa, terus mau apa? Mengingatkan kalau kami ini Putra Putri Garuda dan kami ini ditunggu rakyat.

Gak cuma itu. Yang paling wow dari segala yang wow adalah saat kami benar-benar disambut oleh massa kampus. Kami dimobilisasi dari Sabuga menuju boulevard melalui tunnel. Nah pas keluar dari tunnel, kami disambut dengan beragam spanduk 'unik' yang bertebaran. Gak hanya tulisan di spanduknya yang menggelitik, tapi juga teriakan dari para senior kami.

"KALIAN KIRA JADI MAHASISWA ITU ENAK APA?"

"TERUS KALO UDAH JADI MAHASISWA, MAU NGAPAIN?"

"KALIAN TAU GAKSIH HARGA TAHU TEMPE SEKARANG BERAPA?!"

Dan berbagai teriakan lainnya. Dan akhirnya gue ngerti kenapa kami terus-terusan disuruh 'tempel depannya' oleh keamanan. Selama mobilisasi gue hanya bisa melirik ke kanan-kiri gue sambil berusaha tetap fokus dan jalan cepat. Gue terpana banget, ngeliat kanan-kiri gue penuh, penuuuuuuh banget sama orang-orang berjahim, meneriaki kita. Warna-warni! Nah, pas udah sampai di boulevard, kami disambut lagi oleh kibaran bendera-bendera. Kali ini bendera-bendera himpunan dan unit mahasiswa. Keren banget!

Dan pada akhirnya, tibalah di penghujung acara, closing OSKM ITB 2012. Bagus. Banget. Ketika kita menyanyikan kembali lagu Mentari, bersama-sama meneriakkan salam kebanggaan kami, Salam Ganesha, hingga akhirnya panitia menerbangkan ratusan lampion yang indah di belakang kami. Gue nangis.

Cerita di atas itu sebenarnya gak sesuai urutan acara yang sebenernya, haha udah lupa :p Untuk lebih jelasnya tentang bagaimana 'wah' nya acara penyambutan mahasiswa baru ini beserta spanduk-spanduk besarnya, indahnya malam penutupan OSKM, coba lihat video OSKM ITB 2012 persembahan dari Liga Film  Mahasiswa ITB ini:

Intinya, buat gue, yang dulu adalah mahasiswa baru, acara seperti ini megah sekali. Senang rasanya, terharu, karena kalau dipikir-pikir acara sebesar ini pasti direncanakan jauh-jauh hari, dengan matang, dikonsep sedemikian rupa, hanya untuk kami, 2012. Acara ini bikin capek, tapi nyenengin banget. Berinteraksi dengan taplok yang fun banget, kenalan sama teman-teman dari fakultas lain, ini berharga sekali. 

Gue merasa acara ini ada esensinya kok, bukan sekedar seremonial belaka. Dan gak ada tuh yang namanya kekerasan. Belakangan gue tau kalo ternyata sejarah OSKM di ITB ini panjang sekali, bahkan sempat jadi acara ilegal di tahun-tahun dulu. Pendapat orang-orang tentang event ini juga beragam. Tapi gue pribadi senang dengan acara ini. Interaksi dengan massa kampus menurut gue gak sekedar untuk keren-kerenan. Segala spanduk itu juga menurut gue gak nyampah. Sesungguhnya ya segala tulisan-tulisan itu, sindiran mereka, benar-benar membuat gue sadar kalo gue ini udah mahasiswa. Gue seharusnya sudah tahu banyak. Dan jujur gue gatau saat itu harga tahu tempe berapa. Acara kayak gini pasti dikonsep untuk memberi faedah kok. Gue inget kata-kata pendiklat gue saat sebuah diklat malam pada hari Minggu lalu: Pendiklat itu gak mungkin ngasih kalian racun! Urgensi kemahasiswaan itu, ya penting. Urgent. Acara kayak gini nih salah satunya yang jadi pengingat.

Tulisan ini gue buat hanya untuk mengenang kembali OSKM yang pernah gue rasain sebagai mahasiswa baru itu kayak apa. Ya yang gue harapkan sih gue gak tergugah, sadar, pada saat itu aja. Status gue sekarang mahasiswa tingkat dua, calon taplok. Yang seharusnya mengajarkan, bukan diajarkan. Yang seharusnya menggugah, yang seharusnya menginspirasi. Yah semoga ini gak sekedar wacana gue aja ya...

I've been spending the night by looking at my old trip photos during high school... while repeating Lydia Paek's cover featuring Tablo of Justin Timberlake's Suit & Tie since... two hours ago? Both versions are nice, but I really like Tablo's own verse. 

Get out your tuxes.
We're what the fuss is all about.
Got haters on our speed dial.
We call em out.

...

Started from the bottom, broke as hell.  

...

All fake foes.
If you're real, then you're real like a mermaid's toes.
Frankly, in my ocean all you octopussies better swim good. 

There. Do you possess something fake? Anything? Some purses, wallets, shoes, watches.... Friends? Or foes? I've been lingering around, living in this world for almost 18 years, got so many things, many friends, yet I still can't define which is real, which is fake. Friend. Or foes.

Or, have you ever disliked someone but you don't know why? Sometimes you just.. feel it. If it feels wrong, then there must be something wrong. Sometimes you just know. Sometimes there are some reasons, sometimes there's no any. Because sometimes you don't need to have a single reason to dislike someone, because simply you just can't describe how you feel. Or at least, that was what my friend explained to me.

I personally never define someone as a fake friend, but yes I have some who I dislike. But never at the first sight, or from the first impression. I mean how could you dislike someone without knowing him/her quite well first? But it turned out that it's possible... even there's the scientific explanation for that! Or at least, again, that was what my friend told to me. So she said there's this certain chemical substance inside our body (called pheromones, I guess) which has its own compatible match. So then, if ours don't match with someone's, we could have this 'dislike' feels toward them. This is what actually works within our relationships; with our good cliques, boyfriend/girlfriend, wife/husband, enemies, etc. I conclude that it's... possible, but it's all up to us. Maybe our pheromones don't match, so what? Let's make it a match! If, we want to. If, we want to be forever in peace with everything, anywhere and anytime.

Anyhow, I'm grateful that so far I've been surrounded by lovely people and friends, who know me well, who would like to know me first before judging me. Thank you for not being fake. There are some dramas (both important and not) in my life, but that's it. Everyone must have their own drama.. I mean what's life without it? I'm forever grateful that I have some good friends, best friends, who always there for me whenever and wherever I need them. Who have been through the thick and thin of my life along with me. I'm grateful that I've been through some rows, because those show me that sometimes I'm wrong, flawed. That sometimes I need to remind some people that they're, also, wrong, flawed. Show me that life is not all bubbly and happy, and sometimes I just need to face some difficult people in difficult situations.

It's holiday and I just miss my old friends, that's all. I wouldn't miss them this much if we have the same holiday schedule as them but the fact is my campus is the only one which has been in the holiday time already SOOOOO basically we're alone. If only I have a time machine... I would go back to those wonderful times in Magelang, being all silly and happy with my junior high friends. I would go back to those fantastic times in Tanjung Lesung, Thailand, Anyer... Ugh :'(

I miss you guys, and this is true.

I thought I'd have have three-months (or at least two-months) long holiday, but now I barely even have a month. Three weeks top.

Apa itu libur. Gak kenal. (Sejak masuk kuliah)

The short story is, because I want to take Industrial Engineering (TI) major, I need to take a short-course (sp) during June-July. This sp only needs to be taken by whoever wants to take TI or Management Engineering (MRI) because there are some changes in the syllabus.

A small sacrifice at the beginning of my journey to achieve my dreams. (tsah) Rasanya kayak mau teriak oh why please just give me some breaks, tapi terus ya abis gue teriak dan marah-marah sp nya gak akan hilang. Yang lucu adalah, beberapa wacana pindah jurusan muncul di kalangan kawan-kawan gue :) Some are just being sarcastic, but I heard some (only a few, though) are serious about it. Mungkin karena awalnya emang masih ragu masuk TI, pas denger kabar TI/MRI ada sp langsung deh nggak galau lagi, hehe. Nggak bohong, gue juga rasanya kayak yang 'ah sudahlah ke fisika teknik aja yuk' tapi ya gimana motivasi awal gue masuk FTI karena gue pengen TI.

Doakan ya.

Tiga bulan libur gue yang terenggut nggak cuma karena sp, sih, tapi karena ada diklat OSKM. Nggak, bukan gue yang diospek, tapi diklat bagi yang mengospek. Sifatnya wajib ikut diklat terpusat untuk FTI, jadiiii yaaaa... gitu. Tapi gue emang pengen sih jadi taplok hihi jadi semangat ajadeh.

Alhamdulillah, masih ada yang namanya libur Idul Fitri :') At least gue masih bisa mudik, masih bisa puasa di Jakarta bareng keluarga. Masih punya that so-called 'holiday'. Tapi ya gue dan teman-teman gue penasaran, jadi kayak ngitung-ngitung kira-kira kapan bisa ngerasain libur ITB tiga bulan penuh, dengan asumsi bisa lulus empat tahun (AMIN!).

Tapi ternyata, hitungan kita malah kayak gini.

Tahun pertama: diklat OSKM (dan sp)

Tahun kedua: mungkin, jadi pengurus kegiatan matrikulasi murid baru

Tahun ketiga: kerja praktek

Tahun keempat: insya Allah udah lulus.

Kok kayaknya nggak ada yang bisa liburan tiga bulan penuh, ya? :') Kemungkinan besar liburan paling lama yang bisa kita dapet adalah pas libur di tahun kedua, karena jadi pengurus matrikulasi bisa iya bisa enggak. Pas di libur tahun ketiga udah ada kerja praktek, durasinya tergantung. Tapi ya apalah arti libur tiga bulan kalo jadi nggak produktif. Semangat ajadeeeeeeee.

On a side note, nggak kerasa udah mau ada penerimaan murid baru aja sebentar lagi. Perasaan baru kemaren gue deg-degan nungguin hasil UN, eh hari ini angkatan 2013 yang pengumuman kelulusan UN (selamat ya yang udah lulus!). Kayak baru kemaren gue deg-degan mantengin pengumuman SNMPTN Undangan, tiga hari lagi angkatan 2013 yang bakal ngerasain sensasi menunggu itu. Kayak baruuuuu aja kemaren gue ngantri di Sabuga dari pagi banget untuk daftar ulang, ngambil jamal, foto KTM, matrikulasi... eh kira-kira sebulan lagi, angkatan 2013 akan merasakan hal yang sama. 

Padahal rasanya baru diospek macem gini.....

OSKM ITB 2012. I was at the upper arc of the letter B!

Closing OSKM ITB 2012. This moment was so beautiful, I was literally shedding tears.

......eh sekarang mau ngospek.

Time flies so fast, eh?

Assalamualaikum. My dear blog sorry I haven't updated for a very long time!

Enggak kerasa banget, masa udah setahun aja sih, di ITB? Perasaan baru kemaren sibuk daftar ulang di Sabuga, matrikulasi dari jam 8 pagi sampai jam 6 sore di GKU Timur, dan empat hari OSKM. Mau cerita sedikit ah gue ngapain aja sih sebenernya di sini.

(Ya kuliah lah.)

Sibuk? Ya sibuk ngga sibuk sih. Kalo punya ujian, pr, dan kuis setiap minggu ya emang jadinya sibuk sih tapi karena ini udah jadi rutinitas jadi ya kayak yaudahlah ya... (FYI: ujian untuk TPB di ITB itu setiap hari Jumat. Jeda antara satu ujian dengan ujian yang lain itu satu minggu. Tapi ada juga ujian yang di hari lain, tapi tetep hari Jumat nya pasti ada ujian lain juga. Siklus ini terus berlanjut hingga ujian paling akhir di satu semester). 

Sekarang sih gue bisa ngomong gini, dulu pas semester satu, bulan pertama gue belajar di kampus ini stres banget, bahkan bisa sampai nangis. Melihat teman-teman yang lain wah kok kayaknya jenius-jenius semua, lalu jiper, pelajarannya kilat banget, kuis perdana kalkulus nilainya kok jelek banget, belum bisa adaptasi banget, terus stres. Tapi alhamdulillah ya stresnya nggak lama-lama setelah itu bisa lebih lancar dan menerima karena ya seperti kata senior saya, ujian itu kayak makan. Makan kan udah jadi rutinitas, jadi ya ujian kalo udah rutin jadinya kayak makan. 

Makan tuh ujian.

Oke engga kok enggak. Maksudnya ya kalo udah keseringan dapet ujian dan pr dan tugas dan kuis mendadak itu lama-lama juga mati rasa. Jalani sajalah, berikan yang terbaik.

Nah, iya lama-lama bakal biasa aja. Tapi awalnya.... Hmm gue akui kalo waktu menjelang UTS 1 Fisika IA itu rasanya deg-degan dan takut banget hahah. Perdana banget itu UTS, mana fisika pula. Pokoknya masa-masa UTS 1 semester satu itu rasanya campur aduk antara takut, deg-degan, tapi excited juga hahah. Nah, yang lama-lama bakal biasa aja itu maksudnya ya kalo dikasih jadwal minggu depan super dewa kayak ada kuis besar kalkulus, pengumpulan RBL fisika, dan UTS fisika sih jadinya kayak yang yaudah lah mau gimana lagi, nggak bisa protes juga. Yang masih nggak kebiasa adalah level susahnya. Yep.

Mau udah berapa kali ujian, yang namanya susah ya tetep susah. 

Waktu semester satu, ujian paling susah itu menurut gue UTS II Kimia Dasar IA. Itu dahsyat, dahsyat banget soalnya. Entah karena emang gue yang rada mlempem di kimia atau waktu persiapannya yang kurang padahal materinya super banyak (empat bab dalam dua hari!) atau yah... gue nya yang belajarnya masih nggak bener hahah. Yang tergolong susah juga menurut gue adalah UTS II Kalkulus IA. Nggak sedahsyat kimia tapi tetep aja bikin kepala sakit. 

Alhamdulillah, semester satu gue lalui dengan baik, ngga perlu ikut UAS dan bisa pulang cepet ke Jakarta :D Habis itu ya sudahlah masa-masa balas dendam pas liburan sebulan. Sebelum kembali lagi ke semua kesibukan itu di semester dua.

Eng ing eng tiba-tiba udah semester dua. (CEPET BANGET LOH YA AMPUN). Ketika gue kira semester satu itu belajarnya udah ngebut banget ternyata di semester dua jauh lebih parah. Parah parah parah kilat banget! Akhir Januari baru masuk kuliah tapi awal Maret udah UTS lagi :') Sayangnya gue tidak memulai awal semester dengan kilat juga hahah, gue memulai dengan slow.. super slow... sampai akhirnya pas masuk masa ujian lumayan mabok lol. Tapi yah ngga ada bedanya sih sama semester satu. Sama-sama susahnya, tapi ya sudah jalani saja dengan ikhlas~

Dan kayaknya gue juga merasa jadi lebih santai di semester dua. And it's good; it's not stressful! I live my life here happier. Jadi ngerasa lebih deket sama temen-temen di sini. Semoga kita bisa masuk jurusan yang kita pengen ya guys <3 p="">

Oiya sekarang gue udah selesai kuliah semester dua loh, cepet banget ya. Hari Jumat lalu itu kelas terakhir. UTS II kalfiki udah semua juga, tinggal uts mku yang sks nya dua dan karya tulis TTKI. Alhamdulillah lega banget loh rasanya bisa istirahat.. Tapi berarti bentar lagi pisah sama temen-temen, penjurusan :" Haha masalah penjurusan masalah lain lagi deh buat anak TPB, galau teroooosssss. Semoga kita semua diberikan yang terbaik deh ya, amin.

Kelompok RBL <3 br="">

FTI E dan Ibu Widayani. Uji RBL semester satu: balon udara!

Big Bang's leader, G-Dragon, has worked together with Nicola Formichetti (also known as Lady Gaga's stylist) to produce a runway music for Mugler's fashion show couple days ago in Paris Fashion Week. Here is the clip.

I'm just going to be honest here. (I was also being honest in Tumblr about it, but that's more like me ranting about stuffs(?) and it's so rambly and not to the point and could be misinterpreted. This is why I still stick to this blog for writing purpose because I write things nicer and more organized here, don't know why.)

Bad things first. To be honest the lyrics is just meh. I'm sorry as much as I adore him, I can't let it pass, and I can't take this song seriously (or maybe it's supposedly not to be taken seriously, but save it for later talks). Unfortunately, this is not for my likings. This is too strong for me. When I said it to someone last night on Tumblr, she's surprised that I thought that way. So I categorized myself as a minor since I guess there are a lot of people who think that's not too strong or strange.

As a girl who's raised in a rather conserved society, I do think that is too strong. When I first listened to it I was shocked, but then laughing like crazy. I mean that whispers?! Seriously GD you whisper?! I couldn't get the exact things that he said in that song at the first time so I repeated it, and I was like 'okay wow oppa wow'. And I was thinking "Did I just hear f*ck?" "Is that WOOSH or PUSS". And I thought I had hearing problems but I didn't. I looked at the exact lyrics and that 'wow' feeling turned into 'WOW'.

It's just... it's too explicit. Like the whole song is full of "f*ck yo I don't give a sh*t". I know that it's rather considered as 'normal' considering the fact that it's for runway show where manners is definitely not something to be cared about in the first place. Listening to it is one thing, I can let it go, but when it's written... suddenly that kind of turning alive. Like, it's screaming to your face. There is this huge different between putting some curse words to a song and putting curse words as a whole song. And it's very uncomfortable for me to read it. And I know there are a lot of explicit western songs being promoted and I'm not fond of them either. That's just not for my likings.

I'm also quite disappointed, because I finally found something that I really, really dislike from GD, which is this song. Meh. But me saying this, doesn't mean that I hate him or what. I know that it's for fashion show, not for his promotion or Big Bang. I know he would NEVER release something like this in Korea or Japan or wheresoever for promotion purpose. But to be honest, I was kind of worried about /public/ reaction about this, because although this is not meant for public, they must be knowing this. I was afraid that it's like some free baits for people (specifically haters) being harsh to him again. But he himself said that he didn't give a f*ck, so why should I. And I don't judge him based on this lyrics because aside from the purpose of this song, he's already well known as a naughty naughty and then so what. His parents are so proud of him, so who am I to judge?

 

And then the good things! I must admit that, although I think it's weird, I like the beat, this is the kind of beat that makes you nodding your head! This is like, G-Dragon style. And I admit that I was feeling so proud when it's being shown:

Yeah. G-Dragon is not your little idol. He's out of your reach. 

I admit that this song fits the show perfectly. Like, it represents Mugler so well. It means that he knew who's the client, what were they up to. And he successfully gave them a song that match the collections of Mugler. He satisified his clients. I praise him for this! And yes, because this is for fashion show only, I don't think it's for to be taken seriously. I mean, not for your daily song. And the lyrics is not something to be over analyzed hahah.

And I want to say that as die-hard you are as a fan, it's okay to dislike something from your idols. Dislike the song doesn't mean you also dislike anything else. By being a fan, it doesn't mean you have to like everything come from them and see them as gold, or blindly follow everything they do. In this case, whether it's for fashion show only, if some don't like it, then let them be. There's no need to continuously tell them that "It's for fashion show!" or "Do you expect love songs for runway?" or things like that. No need to force them to like it. 

And some people say that he's going too far. That he's trying so hard not to becoming 'your only little idol star'. To be honest I do think that he's maybe trying too hard. Or maybe it's just because I don't like this kind of stuff. And again this song is only a fashion song so maybe he's not trying to do anything at all and it's just me who take it too far.

In conclusion, I dislike the song (the lyrics to be exact, I don't even dare to reblog it) but also am feeling so damn proud of him. Fashion show is a big thing, you know, and he just raised his standard way above anyone else in the industry. 

Anyway, GD is currently in London and no one knows exactly what's he doing there. Like a ninja.

Hello. Four days until school start and I'm worried I'd be stuck in Jakarta. It's rainy season in Indonesia. Rain is good, really. I love rain. But it seems like rain doesn't love... my city. (Rain loves me since there's no floods anywhere around my house)

Heavy rain started pouring down since last week. But the peak is today. The rain started falling at around 4 am in the morning (WIB) and it's already a heavy one from the start. I just slept by 1 am and at around 4, when the rain started, I got awaken by the water splash... Yes, rainwater splash. The platform of my room got leaked so the rainwater sipped through it... Confused, I could only grab a plastic medium-sized ware and went to the living room and continued my sleep in the sofa. Few hours later, I woke up, checked my room and it turned out that my nanny replaced the plastic ware with two huge plastic buckets, and one of them were already half-filled! Wow! If she didn't put them there, by noon my room would be flooded.

At around 6 am, I've already awaken. The rain's still falling, the thunder's no joke. My nanny and driver accompanied my brother to school, so I was alone. But I was still veeeery sleepy so I slept again in the sofa. And then one hour later, my nanny woke me up and half-telling-half-scolding me that my parent's room's platform also got leaked. She thought I was sleeping there, and because it's leaked I moved to the sofa, so she scolded me because I didn't put anything to patch the rainwater. But I didn't know! So it turned out that the rain was falling even heavier... and if she didn't put a huge plastic bucket there, my room's parent would definitely be flooded too.

This morning was so cold. Like, really really cold. It's as cold as Bandung! At 11 am, it looked like it's 6 pm outside. The rain kept falling and truthfully I was worried there would be another blackout. I hate blackout. So I watched the news, and... wow. Floods everywhere. Like, everywhere. I cannot describe in words how awful the situations are, so here are the pictures. I'm very sorry for my beloved city, Jakarta.

Bunderan HI. Kinda scary isn't it... (source)

Jl. Gatot Subroto (source)

Istana Negara. Even our President and Minister had to roll their trousers up. (source)

It's a ROLLS ROYCE guys. Don't know where it is, but it's definitely a lesson for all luxury cars owners. (source)

There are a lot more pictures of today's floods. Some are funny, like, really funny because some people were enjoying the floods (like these two foreigners who's willing to pay $20 for kids rubber rings), some are shocking because the flooding is no joke (like this mini tsunami in UOB Plaza's basement), and some are tragic and sad... because this floods is truly a major disaster for a lot of families. For another updates and pictures, you can go to Kartu Pos twitter account (@KartuPos) and this blog (someone compiles the floods pictures here) Jakarta Bocor (jakartabocor.tumblr.com). I took the pictures above from these sources.

I live in West Jakarta. The area around my house residence is not affected very much, there's no floods. But, most of the the protocol roads near my house are badly flooded. Jl. S. Parman, Kebon Jeruk highway, Jl. Thamrin... It's so sad looking at the pictures because it looks like they're no longer roads, they're more like dirty pools. Not to mention the condition in some schools and universities in Jakarta. Trisakti University, Tarumanegara University, Atma Jaya University, SMAN 8, SMAN 60... they're more like dirty lakes right now. Floods is not something new for Jakartans. In fact, there is this massive-flood-cycle-every-five-years thing in Jakarta. It's not something new, so that's why we're damned tired of it. How can you live in Jakarta, in every rainy season, without having the fear of your house being flooded? Floods in the house is one thing, but you can't go anywhere because the roads are blocked due to the floods is another thing. And it's not only the floods that is being worried about. The aftermath...? If the victims of floods are not being treated well, they could get some diseases, and that make things getting worse. The victims now need help. From foods, clean water, clothes, medicines, blankets, and anything else. One of many ways to help, you can donate via this site http://bantujakarta.sinergimuda.org/. Any kind of donation is helpful! 

This city needs some changes. Changes from every single Jakarta citizens. Don't make it as one man's responsibility: the governor (or two, with the vice governor). How can some people just straightly put the blame on them? It's better to see them as our partners so together, we can think of ways to handle and prevent this. Truthfully, I like Jokowi and Ahok. I have so much respect for them, although honestly I kinda doubted them previously... since Jokowi is not Jakarta citizen, originally. But they proved me wrong. I'm glad that so far they've done many good things (like the new year eve's festive, public hearing about the 6-new-highways plan.. I mean, have we ever had one kind of public hearing?! Because I haven't heard any other than this. Someone could enlighten me?). And I hope they can do better in handling this lovely but problematic city.

Jakarta's governor, Jokowi, stated that Jakarta is under emergency status following this massive floods until January 27th. It's not raining now. The rain has stopped, the floods are lessened gradually... But we need to be ready every time. We're all hoping that there wouldn't be any heavy rain later tonight since the situation is not stable yet. Amin.

Physically, people have been telling me that I'm not changing a bit. Mentally, they've been telling me that I'm more mature than I should be. Really? Haha I don't think that I'm already mature at all, but I'm also not that kiddie. I should agree with their opinions about my appearances but I'm not feeling the same way for the latter. Instead of mature, I guess thoughtful is more appropriate? Or considerate... Since I often over-think about all stuff. Like seriously, all stuff. Even to some minor details that people might reject or forget about them easily while in my sense, it's a major problem. This over-thinking reaction somehow gets me to a panic behavior. Thus, I'm also known as a panicky. Or lebay, they often say. And people who say this are the ones who tell me that I'm too mature for my age. Ha. Seriously. A panicky is far from a mature, to be honest

Anyway, that's just some random thought. Unimportant, actually, but this thought have been running in my head since I've met some old friends recently and they keep saying those stuff and since I'm thoughtful so-- Well, yeah.

So. Move to a different subject, that in some ways, also leads me to that random thought about myself.

Since I'm a big fan of this idol group, calling themselves Big Bang, I'm practically a fangirl. Who squeals every time she sees her bias acting cute -or with Choi Seunghyun, acting manly and gentle is more accurate-, who stays up till midnight waiting for the new music videos come out. I thought I wouldn't have time to do these again since I'm so busy with all tasks and exams, but it turns out that I still have it. (Well, at least for the time being. Not sure for several years later after I already take a specific major.)

I'm becoming someone that I never though I'd ever be. Cliche, but it's true. I'd never thought that I'd becoming a fangirl of boy band. Even more, a Korean boy band. I've never liked any specific kind of musics or bands or artists before, but now I have. I know that my likings are so diverse, but I'd never imagined myself fell to this world hahah. I'd never asked any gifts in the form of ticket's concert, but the last gift I got was a Big Bang Alive Tour ticket. I'd never asked my Dad to buy a music CD, but when my Dad went to Korea this year, I straightly asked him to buy Alive CD for me. Haha I feel like it's a drastic change for me.

But hey, it doesn't mean that I'm fulfilling my happiness in fangirling way only. Of course not. In matter of fact I'm so bored lately that I'm in thirst of reading some good books. Like the serious kind of books like Dan Brown's /forever waiting his next book to be released/. Or a sweet, full of romance materials like Sophie Kinsella's or Sitta Karina's or Ilana Tan's. Or just a simple comedy genre which is mastered by Raditya Dika. I miss spending my me-time for reading all day long that I even forget to eat or even sleep. Or I should say, I miss having my me-time.

Despite my lacking of time for searching some good books, I always have time to watch TV. Because in my room at dorm, TV is my best friend. Whenever I get sick with those heavy books and note, I turn into my TV and watch everything Star World airs. (Ok specifically, Star World is my ultimate best friend). Sounds sad? That my life is fulfilled by these non-alive stuff? Hahah. Well, of course I need someone alive to please me, but who doesn't get sick, once in awhile, being around people.

Ok it's getting more random haha. But yes, actually I'm currently in such... indescribable mood tonight. After reading a super sweet, flawless fanfiction, and watching Greek season 2, I suddenly have this melancholy feelings hahah. About this and that, about stuff... But the highlight is the episode of Greek season 2 I watched tonight. I mean, the end of this episode is just so sweet I can only squeal on the couch. 

So the point is, there is this character on Greek named Max Tyler. He is incredibly genius, he's worked for NASA, he's so loyal to his girlfriend and he'd do anything, like ANYTHING, for his girlfriend. He's like everything that every girls and every parents want. He's like a complete package that is ready to be delivered and every girl's door are always open for it. He's a fictional character that is so rare to be found in alive state on Earth right now and I just can dream of having someone like him. I want to have someone like Max in my life. But then, I thought, maybe the feelings of wanting Max is just another lame denial of my heart that deep down I might love someone -not too long time ago, but I'm sorry for myself that I keep finding the flaws on him. And the perfection of Max Tyler just adds another lame reasons to my lame reasons list of why I shouldn't fall for this guy. Oh yes this is a confession, guys. But, never mind.

Hahah well, that part of 'wanting Max Tyler in my life' is not completely true. I mean come on I'm not that delusional. BUT if there is any guy wandering around and he just behaved like Max Tyler then it's a bless. For me. :p

And yeah, this thought about Max, about him, somehow leads me to recall the memories from the past, the feelings I used to have towards somebody else, which leads me to another thing which is unrelated to this feelings, which I've written above lol. What a pointless post you've written here, Rizk. But at least, I confessed. (Yes true I've been itching to straightly tell it lol!)

Here, have some Max Tyler in your dream.

Because everything won't be so easy, as easy as it seems. 

Practically, being a college student means living on my own. Transition from teenager to adult. If I'm sick, I'm sick alone. Hungry? My own problem since no one is there to cook me food. Rain season is suddenly becoming my first world's problem. Walking, running under the rain is unavoidable, and shiver comes later. (Not to mention, the time taken to dry my clothes is getting longer. Please.)

Meanwhile, academically, deadline is becoming the worst nightmare. Or should I say, real-life nightmare, since I don't just dream about it. The last week of college has been pretty hectic for us, with all final tasks deadlines and exams came consecutively. I relied on my power of kepepet. This is not so me, to be honest. Now I'm like, oh okay whatever with the results as long as it's finished on time, and I used to be more... perfectionist. The lectures are becoming harder, harder, and harder. I was struggling for a while to adjust with this fast pace of learning in class. When I'm already getting used to it, then I feel like my life is 80% of studying, studying, and studying.

 

It may sounds like I'm complaining, complaining, complaining. But no. I'm so grateful that I'm getting what I've really wanted so bad. Alhamdulillah.  It's just me ranting about how different my life is in college. How difficult it was for me, at first, to be around genius people all day. I've been telling it multiple time, but yeah, I miss the old time. As busy as I was, as bad as my grades were, I've never felt such a big pressure like I sometime feel recently. I miss high school so much. I miss wasting my time in inter lounge, watching random horror movies or Running Man in class, chatting with my teachers, jumping to someone's car and get away from school to TA or CP. Oh, exciting time.

But that is life... right? I am aging, so everything also changes. I'm growing up, so everything also seems becoming more serious to me. Somehow, I feel like another factor why I miss the old time so much is the fact that now I can't joke around as free as I used to do. No more irresponsible me. No more stupid dramas between me and people. This is unavoidable condition that I must go through.. no matter how difficult it is.

Oh, college life. In a speed of light, I'd becoming a career woman, then a wife, then a mother, though. (AMIN)

Oh, time.

Yes, that's a line from Maroon 5's Payphone. Although I'm so into Kpop right now, I'm still enjoying Maroon's 5 latest album Overexposed. I reeeeaaaally like Payphone, I'm jamming to it all day but too bad I don't really like the rap parts.

Anyway, I'm having some... issues right now. About this and that. I cannot tell precisely what kind of problems that I'm having. Old story, actually, more like just another episode of it. Truthfully this thing really ruined my holiday mood. I don't want it and I'm tired, and I don't know how to fix it back or what should I do to end this. Forever.

But let's move on!

One more thing before I end this random (and pointless? Lol I'm bored!) post, I want to share these pictures of 2NE1 for 1st Look magazine! I just found these on their Facebook. And they look gorgeous as usual! My fierce queens are fierce!

Also check out their editorial photos for W Korea Magazine in Cannes, France!