Hello! Emm.. what date is today? January 16? Ermm ok in five days this one month off is over. Ok. 

So. I've been spending the last week of my holiday by randomly searching any videos of Big Bang that I haven't seen yet, and the ones which are very hilarious that I love so much! I watched GD's Infinity Challenge (IC is not like Running Man. It's hilarious, but I find myself laughing less than watching RM), GD&TOP's Night After Night (definitely my favorite. It's like, my ultimate cure for, almost, everything), Big Bang's MVs review by Simon and Martina (they're veeeerrryyy hilarious! Love them! I'm a nasty!), and Big Bang's old MVs and performances. Their past works and performances totally blow my mind. They're really, really good already back then. And to be honest, I love the past Big Shows so much... They're like, very theatrical, the stage is huuuuuuuuuuge, and they sang the old songs which I love, and I miss them a lot.

But the things that caught my attention the most, is TOP. The young Choi Seunghyun. The one who called himself Tempo back in his underground hip-hop life. The boy whose the stage name almost named after YG's favorite guitarist, Mark (I can't imagine if his name is Mark tbh. I mean, Mark?!). The handsome man who firstly caught my heart by his rap in Lies, Love Song, and GD&TOP's songs. And it turns out that his past solo works (and features) are also really awesome. When I think I can't love this man for another reasons, I keep finding things about him that make me fall for him even deeper.

1. T.O.P solo: Act Like Nothing's Wrong

I've heard this song before, long looong time ago. During my early days as VIP. But I remember at that time my internet connection was suck, so I couldn't listen it properly and I gave up and stopped listening to it. And recently, I found this on Youtube again. And watching this performance... the feeling's like admiring, loving him for the first time.

Music wise, it's very, very nice. His voice is heavy, the instrumental voices are dramatic, but I find it comforting. I love this song. It's different with his Turn It Up. Turn It Up is like a headbanger, but this song suits the scene of when you sit on the car, looking out the scape outside the window. And his rap, totally reminds me of why I love him in the first place. His rap. My favorite part is from 3:34-3:55. I want to see him rapping that way again. In that kind of beats, in that gestures. This rapping way is similar with his part in Crayon on MAMA 2012 stage. This rapping style reminds me of his past history as an underground rapper... as Tempo. When he's not an idol yet, but he already got that passion to become a rapper. Rapper Seunghyun, I love you. Performance wise, I love it. I almost cried when he started playing the harmonica... He clearly showed his emotions during the performance. He's giving his all out. This performance is the best, and I'd loooooove to see this solo stage in the next Big Show...

2. Red Roc Hello ft. T.O.P

Am I super late? I just found this video yesterday from eatyourkimchi! I even found it in a non-fansite! And don't be bored, but I'll keep saying: I love it. It's not Big Bang, yes, but I love this song. I love their voices! Hello hello hello.... Remember when I said that I'm more into K-hiphop, and maybe that's why I like SNSD's I Got A Boy and love The Cypher 2012 so much? This song is hip-hop, but not idol-ish hip-hop, and I love it in the same way I love Epik High's songs. Epik High is not idol group, kay. (And it's very hard to search for another Red Roc's work! Someone could help me...?)

That's about the song. Now, the music video. Ok. Where to start? Because, there are like, gazillions interesting things that I like and love a lot. Because it's TOP. T.O.P. 

Ok, let's start from the first scene, when he looked straight into the camera with anger face while walking and hitting the fences. He's so damn hot. And then he recalled the times when he found out that his girl was cheating. Start from the 0:19 scene when he walked, wearing shades and bringing a flower bouquet, and then SMIRKING to the camera (IT'S MY WEAKNESS OKAY). Then he saw his girl kissed another man and they just ran away by car and he's CHASING THE CAR WITH ANGER. I LOVE IT SO MUCH WHEN HE SHOWS HIS ANGRY FACE DO YOU UNDERSTAND. But he couldn't catch them. He gave up. So he ran to another direction, still devastated, in anger. He felt betrayed. Then he found a bat. Glistened by anger, he grabbed it and he got his determination to catch them back. He ran again. With that angry face, he looked so daaaaaaaamn hot.

And then he shaved his hair. HE SHAVED HIS LONG HAIR ON SCREEN AND HE'S GETTING HOTTER IN HIS BALD HAIR OMG I GUESS I JUST FOUND MY FAVORITE HAIR OF TOP. He looked so masculine, tough, strong... you see that, right?! And I thought that mirror room, is the same room as where GD showed his frustration in Haru Haru MV. (Or maybe it is the same?!) Ok, so after he shaved his hair, he walked again... smashed everything... encountered with a group of boys... fought with them... again he's sooooo hotttt especially with that bald hair. And then finally he found them. On a parking lot. And again, this parking lot scene reminds me a lot of that scene in Lies MV where they're rolling on their roller shoes and in Haru Haru MV where GD attacked TOP in TOP's car after knowing that TOP was with his girl?! Or maybe it is the same parking lot?!

And then start from 3:10 when he jumped off the car, stood in the hood, and gave them a "HOW COULD YOU CHEAT ON ME AND HOW COULD YOU STEAL MY GIRL" look, then smashed the window. It's also, my favorite part. He's so mean.......... (and I like it) And then the girl's angry. But he didn't care. It's all already over, anyway. He walked away. The end.

So that's it I just described the interesting parts of this MV, and it seems like I just described the whole MV?! Well.... because everything about this MV is interesting. And from this MV, I understand his passion for acting better. He's giving his all out, again, in his acting. Not just in this MV, but in Haru Haru! (And to be honest I think, this is like Haru Haru MV 2.0 T.O.P ver) After watching this, I'm getting more excited for his upcoming movie, Alumni! His previous movie, 71:Into The Fire, is amazing, it made me cry for minutes! So I believe that Alumni is gonna be another hit from him! Actor Seunghyun, I love you!

3. GD&TOP Night After Night (with Daesung)

This is it, my most favorite any K-variety show's episode ever! Hah! GD and TOP are totally like dorks during the show, plus Daesung (as host) kept making jokes so it's definitely hilarious! It's a must watch hahah!  This show is aaaall about GD&TOP, about how they felt... towards anything. About Big Bang. Makes me know another side of them, stories, that I haven't known!

My favorite part is when TOP explained the role of each own during the GD&TOP promotions: 

G-Dragon told me to balance the center, like with Big Bang, so that he can fly above.  I thought that the concept he wanted this time was to ‘fly’.  The balance has to be just right, so I figured I’d stand center while he flies around.

And then GD laughed so hard after hearing this hahah! For the resume of the whole show, read it here. But you definitely must watch this hahah! Here is the link for watching the show.

4. Haru Haru GD&TOP Acoustic Live

Haru Haru is definitely one of my favorite song of Big Bang. It's a full of emotion song! I love it so much, especially the live acoustic version which often sung by them in concerts. In Jakarta's Alive Tour, they also sang it in acoustic version... and I was crying hahah it's beautiful. Oh, in another stages they asked the fans to sing along with them. When more than 12000 people sang it together, it's so beautiful.

And then I found a performance stage when it's only GD&TOP who sang. And it's just as beautiful as the original...

And this is a sound clip of Haru Haru during Alive Tour Seoul 2012. Just listen how beautiful their voices, and how beautiful the fans' voices when they sing along to it, together.

Nah, that's it. Actually there are still several interesting things about TOP and Big Bang that I found... But this post is too long already hahah. I'm really waiting for you solo album, TOP, I really am. I'm waiting for rapper TOP to comeback! But yes, yes I know that he's into acting right now, and I really can't wait for his upcoming movie, Alumni. I can sense a great work by you is coming, Tabi... Good luck, actor Choi Seunghyun! :)

Fangirling mode: ON.

Ok. I'm not really gonna fangirling.. Nope. But yes I'm gonna talk about Big Bang. Not for their music, but for their fashion sense. I'm not a fashion expert so probably I'm just talking nonsense here lol, it's only my opinion anyway.

Although I love Big Bang for their music in the first place, I cannot deny that I also love their looks. They're unique, in a sense that they're not just handsome, but there's definitely something about them that set them apart from the regular Korean boy-bands type. They have the faces, and they have the outfits.

Let's just say that they're not only great in producing music, but they also have such a great fashion sense. They can mix and match everything flawlessly. They can pull of some hilarious outfits which are surely cannot be done by any other people. So, guys, don't ever try to match them, okay? Just, don't. I mean, how can any other guys walking around with this jacket flawlessly like this man?

I don't care if it's Commes des Garcons or Chanel or Versace or whatever, if it looks weird, just don't try to wear them, kay? Weird things belong to Big Bang LOL.

But thankfully, they mostly wear something really nice, really good pieces instead of weird! They look good on them, I guess because they know what is good for themselves. Like TOP, he's already too comfortable with coats and jackets and everything long-sleeved. And although I really want to see him wearing something else which is more revealing, I must say that he looks very good in this style hahah! This man is all about classy and elegant anyway. And I ship TOP and Prada. Many fans hate the coats because they hide his sexy body perfectly LOL but please, you guys too must admit that this man looks very elegant and glamor and flawless in those long coats.

And then Taeyang and GD with their gangsta style lol. All golds and diamonds rest on them! They wear things from Chrome Hearts from head to toe like, all the time. I'm still curious why Chrome Hearts haven't offered them an endorsement contract to be honest... I mean, they're surely one of their loyal customers! And both of them have even already came to the head office of CH and met the designers and their family. FAMILY. They're truly CH's gems, right?! Ok. So. Their styles. Scarves.. Rings... Earrings.. Belts... Leathers... Tank tops... Caps.. Beanies... Varsity jackets... Baggy pants... Well, it's Taeyang who dressed more like this, lol.

But for GD, he's versatile. He wears, practically, everything. Suits? YES. Tracksuits? YES. Woman clothes? YES. Skirt? YES. And surprisingly, he's good almost in everything. Those woman clothes he wears, look good on him instead of me, I guess... Like the flower-patterned jacket from Celine he wore in the Vogue photoshoot.

 

 

Daesung and Seungri wear simpler clothes! Simple, but fun! Leather jacket.. Sweater... Simple long-sleeved shirts.. polo shirts... The maknaes love the simple ones! Who says simple is unattractive? Sometimes simple is better ;) And who would you prefer to bring to your parents: the one dressed in fresh, clean, sophisticated clothes, or the one dressed in studded stuff? :p (But I'm sure, Taeyang and GD WILL NOT wear any weird stuff when proposing hahah!)

 

 

 

 

 

As much as I love the way they dress themselves, I don't approve some. Like, GD in skirt? Sorry, man, no matter how good it falls on your legs, I can't let it pass :(

And not only GD, I also don't approve his friend, Soo Hyuk, wearing skirts... Fortunately he's only wearing it in runways. Haven't seen him wearing any in real life!!

And then this purple velvet suit TOP wore... That's actually one fine suit, but I don't like the v-neck shirt beneath. I mean v-neck.. shirt... in purple... umm no.

And then this hair... thank God we're already passed this phase.

They're getting famous day by day, getting all the loves... and once I wondered how many do these boys get? Hahah but they really, reaaaally deserve it :) Their hard work... All of those sweats turn into money, gifts, etc. Big Bang is Big Bang. A group of beloved boys with their distinctive charisma, voices, and fashion sense. They love fashion, fashion loves them. Big Bang, together and individually, have endorsed Calvin Klein, BSX, FUBU, North Face... (let me silent for a moment because CK and FUBU ads by TOP is just flawless)

Oh! Other thing that's interesting for me, is the fact that they can differ what to wear on stages and on daily life, without losing their style! It makes me think that, they are their own stylists. They dress themselves with something that they really like, that match their personalities. Or their stylist already know them so well, know what they want, and what look perfect on them.

And not only their stylists, apparently... fans also already recognize their style lol. Fans buy them all things -like shoes, accessories, clothes, that really suit them perfectly. And I'm also happy when I know that Big Bang wears the gifts they got :') TOP is recently seen wearing gifts from fans! Like this brown Prada shoes! It's a gift from one of his fansite, UTOPIA!

And I should add that, as a big fan of TOP, this man should try to walk on runway. He has the face, the talent, the good body's proportion. He should join his fellow model friend, Soo Hyuk!! I mean, really, he walks on airport like walks on runway...

Big Bang is indeed a leader. They lead the music wave... Kpop leader... Fashion leader... Yep, fashion leader. Even GD said he wanted to open a clothing line!! That must be E P I C. I'm really sure he would open one in the future, though. He's really into fashion. I mean, he even attended Paris Fashion Week 2012!! And his looks while attending the shows were very, very memorable. I mean, come on. Who would forget a man dressed like this in a bright pink hair?

They wear branded stuff. From Chanel to Versace to Chrome Hearts to Thom Browne to Dolce & Gabbana to Gucci... name it all. They have it on their closets. And unsurprisingly, those brands, love Big Bang back. Have you seen the quirky MV of Fantastic Baby? Notice the crowns they wear at the end of it? To be honest, I thought those are some pretty crowns made beautifully by the creative directors of the MV. But nope. Those are actually some magnificent crown jewels, art works by Comme des Garcons x Christian Astuguevieille. Those, are probably not for sale, since they're displayed inside the glass boxes at Comme des Garcons Seoul. I mean, look. The privileges they get...

 (picture from here)

And few days ago, GD tweeted that he got a gift from Chanel and Taeyang tweeted that he got two pairs of shoes from NIKE...

Our gold and diamond boys, indeed!!! Ah! I'm writing this because I just randomly lurking around this blog: bigbangswaq.tumblr.com. And the source of some pictures I included here are from this blog. From this blog we can know what Big Bang wear... and they also tell the price and where to buy! But.. but.... they're freaking expensive I can only admire them from afar, while they're rested on Big Bang!

Oh, before I end this blabbering post. I think I could find a lot of better pictures of them, but I'm just too lazy lol. Sorry! Just trust me. They really, really, reaaaally have a great fashion sense! Fashion crime is far from them!

I've never fallen for any skinny guy before except GD (he's always the exception). But it's official. I fall for this man.

LEE SOO HYUK.

LOOK AT HIS FACE. HIS STARE. HE REMINDS ME OF CHOI SEUNGHYUN A LOT WITH JIYONG'S BODY SO HE'S LIKE THE PERFECT COMBINATION. Ok stop here.

So. He's a Korean model-actor. To be honest, it's not love at the first sight, it's more like love at the first sounds. I wasn't this interested before when I firstly saw a picture of Soohyuk. But then I watched a clip of Strong Heart in which Soo Hyuk is one of the guest. And then DANG. His voice. His deep voice. Just like Seunghyun's. I fall in love.

None of my friends know who he is, lol. But it's expected, since he is mainly a model. He is not an idol. I know him because he is part of Nuthang crew. Then what is Nuthang? Haha none of my friends also don't know about this circle of friends. Nuthang is a friendship gang, consisted of singers, models, actors, designers, stylists. And you know what, TOP and GD are also part of this gang, so of course I eventually know Soo Hyuk haha. (In fact TOP is the one who named it Nuthang, lol)

Soo Hyuk is so... skinny. He's even skinnier than GD because he's way taller than him. But I don't know, beside his attractive, sexy, husky voice, there's something about him that attracts me. His jawline, maybe. Or his eyes. Beside voice, I'm weak of intense glare and sharp jawline. He looks like a vampire. Like, sexy vampire... he's even sexier than Robert Pattinson. And I really think that he could replace Jason Rathbone as Jasper lol.

Soo Hyuk is classy. Elegant. I like classy man. That's why I like Choi Seunghyun. The fact that they're close friends is really, reaaaally amusing hahah. I really like it when the Nuthang is hanging out together. I really, really want to be in that circle of society to be honest LOL in my dream. When I heard that GD and TOP spent the last Christmas eve's together with Nuthang I was like YAAAAAAAAYYYY hahah!

But seriously, I really want to have such a good friendship like they have. In some interviews, they talk about Nuthang and their friendships.. And based on that, I can tell that the relationships they have is very precious :)

I am a bit shy. I’m not that sociable either so I mostly hang out with friends I already know. The friends that I meet are usually friends from back in high school. We all went to different high schools actually but somehow got close because we all used to hang out in the same neighborhood. There are people who see us as some kind of ‘celebrity group’ because of some of us are popular such as being singers, stylists and other jobs but that’s a misunderstanding. We just happened to become friends.

Lee Soo Hyuk (talking about Nuthang)

A lot of my friends (NUTHANG) are artists or designers. They’re friends that I’ve known since I was little. They always ask me to set them up with lady celebrities, but I don’t have any female celebrities’ numbers in my cell phone so the disappointment is no joke.

 Choi Seunghyun

 

 So let me share some pictorials of Soo Hyuk which really grab my heart.

 

And some of his photos with Nuthang. And let's just say that, other than the reasons above, I also looove him so much with this long hair. (Top: with Yanggaeng -also part of Nuthang. Below: with TOP)

 

I have so many Soo Hyuk/Nuthang feels recently because he keeps updating his Twitter hahah! Follow his Twitter @LXXSXXHKKK! He's currently on the way to Paris, after walked in runway in London. And he is so cute on Twitter. Like, really. Once (two days ago, I guess?) he posted a photo of his polaroid shot for the agency and tweeted  something like "My name is Soo Hyuk but they spelled it wrong :(" OR something like that because I forget the exact sentence and he deleted it already lol. But although he already deleted, he posted it again with different caption, this time in Korean (I don't know the translation). Then he deleted it again and posted it again LOL. This time he tweeted "Bananas agency in paris.". LOL HIS AGENCY IS CALLED BANANAS HAHAH sorry but I kinda find it funny... that a model agency is named as Bananas... Hahah! And now I know what he meant by they spelled it wrongly because on the Bananas' website, his portfolio URL page is "soo-huyk' lol. 

And also, he tweeted "Paris" before. But he deleted it. And not long after, he tweeted "Paris >>>>> London" looooll Jiyong's style!!! Oh, and other thing that makes me delighted is the fact that Jiyong's the first one who Soo Hyuk's followed on Twitter!!!! Hahah and they also follow each other in Instagram! 

But what makes me curious, though, how is the relationship between him -and the rest of Nuthang- and the rest of Big Bang? It's very rare to see them together. But 2NE1's CL is close to Nuthang. Maybe Yanggaeng introduced her like TOP introduced GD? (Yanggaeng is 2NE1's stylist) Hahah this thought came in because I just figured out that Soo Hyuk doesn't follow Taeyang and Seungri on Twitter. BUT HE FOLLOWS KIKO MIZUHARA. TAEYANG AND SEUNGRI DON'T FOLLOW KIKO. This fact, though, makes me think that maybe Kiko and GD aren't dating. Maybe Kiko is just part of Nuthang. Or, Nuthang's close friend (close friend, a category which somehow fits CL, Yoon 'Ambush', Verbal, and some few others...) . Since TOP confessed that he's also close to her... Wait, but Soohyuk and Kiko are both models so....

Omg so many Nuthang's feeeeeeels hahah! If you want to know more about Soo Hyuk/Nuthang or keep updated by the latest news/photos of them, just follow www.thenuthangcrew.tumblr.com! That is my favorite blog of Nuthang! Hehe this blog is also the source of most of the photos and the interviews I included here. Want to see another pictorials of Soo Hyuk? Just go to his page on the agency's website here.

Good night!

Hello, 2013! Alhamdulillah I can see you ;)

Just some quick updates. I'll write a dedication post for one of my best friend who'll be leaving Jakarta very soon... But later! I'm just going to share my new year's jam lol. Since I like Big Bang, I guess my likings of music has slowly shifted. I'm more towards rap these days. I just realized it when I actually kind of like SNSD's I Got A Boy. A lot of people dislike it, but to be honest, this song could be my most favorite song of SNSD so far hahah. I mean, compared to Gee, IGAB totally wins. The song is confusing, yes. It's like five different songs combined in one. But I like the beats. It makes me nodding my head while listening hahah.

But it doesn't mean that I dislike slow songs, lol. Sometimes I feel nostalgic when I'm listening to Blue, and to be honest if I'm in a bad mood, I might crying lol or at least got my eyes teary. My on-the-go playlist in my iPod includes a lot of slow or r&b songs of Big Bang, 2NE1, and Epik High!

I guess because I have a lot more stress now than in the past, I need a head banger. Songs which make me nodding, sing-screaming (if you understand what I mean hahah). Songs which make me relax a bit, because of the fun beats hahah. But since Big Bang is not too hip-hop, I guess my likings for hip-hop is just up to that standard. And I don't know if I only like Korean hip-hop, or hip-hop in general. But the SBS Gayo Daejun's performance of 'The Cypher 2012' by Epik High, Simon D, Gaeko, and Choiza really wowed me. Like wow. Wow. I've been repeating it so many times, although I really don't know the meanings of it nor how to sing it. I just keep nodding my head. 

And because of The Cypher 2012, I truly adore DJ Tukutz more. I like Epik High, but because Tukutz doesn't sing, he sometimes lost in my radar. The Cypher 2012 is mixed by him and I looooooooooooooove it so much, like LOVE it. Love you Tukutz. 

Here it is, The Cypher 2012. Maybe some of you don't like it as I do, different taste! But I find it really addictive hahah. Oh, I like Gaeko's part the most! If I could sing it, I would change the lyrics to AR - AI - ZET - KEY - EI a ka R-I-Z-K-A hahahah! (It's actually G A E K O)

And Tablo gave us the link to download it for FREE! Yeah! But somehow I couldn't download it straightaway, I don't know is it only me who got this problem. So I downloaded it here.

Enjoy! And happy new year! I wish we all will have a merciful year ahead :)

I was so excited when I heard that Daesung would have his own solo ALBUM and solo CONCERT. I mean, wow! After all he went through in past year, this could be his jumping stone to get better individual acknowledgment as an artist, as a singer. I love his vocal so much. He also deserves the chance to get a spotlight just for himself, once in awhile. 

But then, I got a little bit confused when the album would be a Japanese album, and the concert would be held in Japan. Japan, first? I know that it'd be such brilliant work from him no matter it's Korean or Japanese, but it's kinda weird, to be honest.  I mean why not Korea, where he has a lot of loyal fans who've been cheering for him since debut. I just think that YG should back him up for producing a nice, surprising gift for them. 

And then, couple days ago, I just figured out that it's a cover album. Means that Daesung will some already existing songs. I... got more confused. Again, although I know that he'd be amazing whatever he sings, I also know that he deserves a more proper album. By proper, I mean the album which really belongs to him, in which he has all the songs are owned by himself. The track  list can be found here. I'm a little disappointed, to be honest. I was expecting an album of him which has more tracks like Wings which is such a nice and sweet work from him and GD. I don't know is it the company's decision to produce this cover album, or Daesung's. But well, yeah, as disappointed as I am, I still believe that whatever it is, it's probably the best for Daesung for the time being. 

I don't know what are the reasons but I just wish he'd do well, although I know that he will :) And I really want to attend the concert, but no chance for me at all, unfortunately. No when I'm still a college student with limited money and time. I always cheer you from this faraway land, Daesungie! And I'm still very excited!!! I really am!!!! I'm very happy that finally we'll get a solo album from Daesung!! I'm never bored by saying this, but YEAH IT'S GONNA BE AWESOME!

While waiting for the album to be released, this is Wings, everyone. 

And... meanwhile. While Daesung's fans will get his own album, when will be Choi Seunghyun's turn..? I know, I know that he's busy in acting and I can't wait for his upcoming movie, Alumni, which I believe will be daebak (just like Into The Fire that made me crying for minutes). But I know him and I love him first as a brilliant, outstanding rapper, so I really wish he'd release his solo album sometime (sooner, please, I'm begging...) in the future. I know that he's more than capable in writing lyrics and producing good songs. I love what he has released before, like Oh Mom and Turn It Up. Especially Oh Mom. The lyrics, the story behind the lyrics, the overall song itself, the way he sings it, really melt me down. 

I mean, just look at his performance.

Another thing that I'm expecting? GD&TOP Vol. 2. As much as I want TOP to have his solo album, I also want this magical collaboration to be happened again. Just like what they said, GD&TOP is a double combo. Double perfection. The first album, GD&TOP Vol. 1 is pure gold, and I'm craving for more. Together, they're oozing their perfection, sexiness, and of course, the amazing natural rapping skill that they have. Have you seen the performance of Big Bang in MAMA 2012? Or I should say, the most amazing performance of that night? 

Here, if you missed it.

The first song they sang is actually GD's solo song, Crayon. And I got stunned, at the very beginning, when TOP came out and suddenly rapped his own version of Crayon and that's just awesome. And to be honest I thought that would be another GD&TOP stage just like in MAMA 2010. Oh, by the way, GD&TOP (and Taeyang) really owned the stage, in MAMA 2010. 

Flawless. Unexpected. Fierce.

My favorite track from GD&TOP Vol. 1 is Baby Goodnight. That song, and the music video, just go straight to my heart and I can't help but love it so much. First impression about this song: sexy. I'm not lying, but this is the sexiest song I've ever heard. Well, not only the song, the music video is also... sexy. But nothing beats the sexiness that they're oozing in live performance, to be honest.

Yes, I love live performance better. This is actually why I love Big Bang in the first place. They really sing with their mind and heart in every stage's they're performing in, and they always nail it. They have the right attitude on stage, no body can resist their charisma. And this is why I really enjoyed their live performance in Jakarta couple months ago. Best night ever.

Well, that's it. From Daesung.. to TOP, to GD&TOP. I really want them to be happened soon soooo bad. It doesn't mean that I'm not waiting for another GD/YB/Seungri solo, though. Three of them already have their solo albums. And actually I'm expecting Taeyang's work next year since actually he's been working for it for some time now! And GD actually has just released his new album this year, and Seungri just released his album VVIP last year. So, yeah, I'm just waiting for Daesung's and Tabi's turn...

Oh, you know what else I'm expecting for? Another Big Bang epic comeback, which is rumored to be released by fall next year. But seriously, since YG's calendar is messed up, so... better be ready for the expected shifted dates.

Physically, people have been telling me that I'm not changing a bit. Mentally, they've been telling me that I'm more mature than I should be. Really? Haha I don't think that I'm already mature at all, but I'm also not that kiddie. I should agree with their opinions about my appearances but I'm not feeling the same way for the latter. Instead of mature, I guess thoughtful is more appropriate? Or considerate... Since I often over-think about all stuff. Like seriously, all stuff. Even to some minor details that people might reject or forget about them easily while in my sense, it's a major problem. This over-thinking reaction somehow gets me to a panic behavior. Thus, I'm also known as a panicky. Or lebay, they often say. And people who say this are the ones who tell me that I'm too mature for my age. Ha. Seriously. A panicky is far from a mature, to be honest

Anyway, that's just some random thought. Unimportant, actually, but this thought have been running in my head since I've met some old friends recently and they keep saying those stuff and since I'm thoughtful so-- Well, yeah.

So. Move to a different subject, that in some ways, also leads me to that random thought about myself.

Since I'm a big fan of this idol group, calling themselves Big Bang, I'm practically a fangirl. Who squeals every time she sees her bias acting cute -or with Choi Seunghyun, acting manly and gentle is more accurate-, who stays up till midnight waiting for the new music videos come out. I thought I wouldn't have time to do these again since I'm so busy with all tasks and exams, but it turns out that I still have it. (Well, at least for the time being. Not sure for several years later after I already take a specific major.)

I'm becoming someone that I never though I'd ever be. Cliche, but it's true. I'd never thought that I'd becoming a fangirl of boy band. Even more, a Korean boy band. I've never liked any specific kind of musics or bands or artists before, but now I have. I know that my likings are so diverse, but I'd never imagined myself fell to this world hahah. I'd never asked any gifts in the form of ticket's concert, but the last gift I got was a Big Bang Alive Tour ticket. I'd never asked my Dad to buy a music CD, but when my Dad went to Korea this year, I straightly asked him to buy Alive CD for me. Haha I feel like it's a drastic change for me.

But hey, it doesn't mean that I'm fulfilling my happiness in fangirling way only. Of course not. In matter of fact I'm so bored lately that I'm in thirst of reading some good books. Like the serious kind of books like Dan Brown's /forever waiting his next book to be released/. Or a sweet, full of romance materials like Sophie Kinsella's or Sitta Karina's or Ilana Tan's. Or just a simple comedy genre which is mastered by Raditya Dika. I miss spending my me-time for reading all day long that I even forget to eat or even sleep. Or I should say, I miss having my me-time.

Despite my lacking of time for searching some good books, I always have time to watch TV. Because in my room at dorm, TV is my best friend. Whenever I get sick with those heavy books and note, I turn into my TV and watch everything Star World airs. (Ok specifically, Star World is my ultimate best friend). Sounds sad? That my life is fulfilled by these non-alive stuff? Hahah. Well, of course I need someone alive to please me, but who doesn't get sick, once in awhile, being around people.

Ok it's getting more random haha. But yes, actually I'm currently in such... indescribable mood tonight. After reading a super sweet, flawless fanfiction, and watching Greek season 2, I suddenly have this melancholy feelings hahah. About this and that, about stuff... But the highlight is the episode of Greek season 2 I watched tonight. I mean, the end of this episode is just so sweet I can only squeal on the couch. 

So the point is, there is this character on Greek named Max Tyler. He is incredibly genius, he's worked for NASA, he's so loyal to his girlfriend and he'd do anything, like ANYTHING, for his girlfriend. He's like everything that every girls and every parents want. He's like a complete package that is ready to be delivered and every girl's door are always open for it. He's a fictional character that is so rare to be found in alive state on Earth right now and I just can dream of having someone like him. I want to have someone like Max in my life. But then, I thought, maybe the feelings of wanting Max is just another lame denial of my heart that deep down I might love someone -not too long time ago, but I'm sorry for myself that I keep finding the flaws on him. And the perfection of Max Tyler just adds another lame reasons to my lame reasons list of why I shouldn't fall for this guy. Oh yes this is a confession, guys. But, never mind.

Hahah well, that part of 'wanting Max Tyler in my life' is not completely true. I mean come on I'm not that delusional. BUT if there is any guy wandering around and he just behaved like Max Tyler then it's a bless. For me. :p

And yeah, this thought about Max, about him, somehow leads me to recall the memories from the past, the feelings I used to have towards somebody else, which leads me to another thing which is unrelated to this feelings, which I've written above lol. What a pointless post you've written here, Rizk. But at least, I confessed. (Yes true I've been itching to straightly tell it lol!)

Here, have some Max Tyler in your dream.

Basically, everything's hectic. This is waaay different than high school. College life is a true experience of living with a hectic schedule. Fighting for me and for the other new college students!

Some updates from me, I WENT TO BIGBANG ALIVE GALAXY TOUR 2012 CONCERT IN JAKARTA ON OCTOBER 13th.

Happy? VERY. 

Satisfied? YES.

Are they really sexy? HAHA TO BE HONEST, YES.

Are their singing abilities really that good? VERY GOOD. NO LIPSYNC, BABY.

Was it very hectic at the standing section? IT WAS LIKE A BATTLE TO GET SOME FRESH AIR LOL IT WAS SO HOT (literally). I was like getting squeezed by the people from left and right and front and back but lucky me, I was getting pushed to the front so I was like, only FIVE METERS AWAY FROM THE STAGE.

Best thing about the concert? I TOUCHED TOP's SWEATY TOWEL LOL it was like a battle between me and my friend and five other people. I almost lost my glasses during this chaos so I let the towel out of my reach. If I let my glasses lost, I'd probably get that towel lol.

Which one of them who's the most handsome that night? ALL OF THEM. Really, although TOP is like one true lady killer, I just couldn't take my eyes off of Taeyang's abs (he was shirtless as usual lol he ripped his shirt and thre it away), Daesung's beaaauutiful smile, GD's swag (100% SWAG, and Seungri's cute gestures. 

So... did you get close-up pics of them? YES. Unfortunately I didn't bring my pocket camera so I was just taking pics from my cellphone and most of them....are blurred. But I got two nice, clear shots of GD in front of me, and some long distances shots of the group.

Did you get your crownstick? Yes and I got the official one! Yay! But it's super expensive it costs me around $25. I really wanted the t-shirt but the official ones were soooo expensive and I didn't have time to buy because I had to start queuing.

Speaking of queuing, how long did you take only for queuing? Me? I only took around ONE AND HALF HOUR. And I got the same spot as those who already start queuing since 9 a.m (the show started at 8 p.m and I just arrived at the venue at 5 p.m). Lucky me!

So... if they come back next year, would you like to go again? ABSOLUTELY, if the time is right and the money is there! :D

So the conclusion is, that was one of my best night. Ever. They didn't disappoint at all and their singing abilities are no joke. GD and TOP are brilliant rappers, no flaws. GD sang a little bit part of One of A Kind and Crayon and TOP beatboxing to those songs. Truly enjoying their performances! Although the crowd was wild and crazy (I was wild and crazy too) and my body were squeezed and it's tiring, no regrets! :)

That was my craziest night ever. Still can't believe that I was among this crowd, holding my crownstick proudly up in the air, dancing and singing along with them, jumping very high during Knock Out and High High while shouting BBUKEEGAYO and HIGH HIGH I'M SO HIGHHHHHHHH IN THE SKYYYY... It was all like one dream :)

I couldn't share some pictures that I took myself, I would post it straight away once I get my connector!

Oh, I recently love listening to Epik High 99! This album is veeery good, I truly enjoying the songs and I REALLY LIKE THE MUSIC VIDEOS. My favourite track: Don't Hate Me. Everybody hates me but you love me and I love you...

And the MV is one cute video. Love it.

I already know Tablo for awhile and I really respect him. I don't really know about Epik High yet, but I really enjoy listening to this album. In my opinion this album is better that Tablo's Fever's End. Fever's End is one brilliant album, full of emotion, but here in Epik High 99, I find the confidence that I feel Tablo still lacked in Fever's End. In this album, I feel like Tablo already moves on. Tablo, Mithra, Tukutz, really showed us their rapping and composing abilities veeeeeery well. Well, congratulations Epik High, your group name describes you guys perfectly :)

I've never thought I would fall for a man like him, who always have crazy hair and crazy outfits:

I knew GD from Family Outing episode. I hadn't known about Big Bang back then so I didn't really care. Later, after I knew Big Bang... this man really surprised me (well, he's always surprising). He constantly changes his hairstyle until sometimes I can't recognize him! To be honest I hate some of his hairstyle and feel like screaming WHY GD WHY!!!!!! Not only his hairstyle but also his outfits.

Seriously, sometimes his outfits are more like... weird? And I'm pretty sure it's only him who can pull those crazy styles off -if I found one man walking around dressed like GD, he'd probably look like clown. But strangely... most of the time, after one day hating his style, I'll end up liking it. It happens to me. And apparently to many other VIPs as well.

Let me give you one picture of him... in his pink hair. I give you the best one:

(Yes, I hated his pink hair. And yes, now I'm okay with it.)

His quirky style is meant to him only. Please, anyone else pleeeeeease don't try to copycat his style. It's 99% chance that you'd fail!

He's an icon. Music icon, fashion icon, you name it. He's probably not the best looking idol, his outfits are sometimes weird, but he's a musical genius. A perfectionist leader, rapper, composer. I admire his passion, work, creativity... That's probably why I can't hate him for long time.

(For you who want to know more about his work and his life story, go check this article. This article is actually the summary of reasons why, I like him.)

Halo, blog! Udah delapan bulan nggak nulis apapun disini. Cerita gue (dari yang sepele sampai yang serius) menumpuk banyak banget. Mulai dari rasa cinta gue sama Big Bang sampai fakta kalau sekarang gue udah jadi anak kost Bandung. Oke quick news, sekarang alhamdulillah gue udah resmi jadi mahasiswa Fakultas Teknologi Industri ITB. Akhirnya, kawan, nasib membawa gue kembali ke FTI, mau betapa seringnya gue galau soal fakultas/jurusan :’) Dan alhamduillah nasib membawa gue ke FTI ITB, fakultas dan perguruan tinggi idaman gue! 

Oke jadi... Post ini gue dedikasikan untuk... BIG BANG! Bosen banget gue sekarang haha, mending gue racunin kalian-kalian semua ini biar suka Big Bang! (Fyi, gue udah sukses racunin beberapa temen gue bahkan yang cowok hanya berbekal video klip dan klip konser mereka.) Cerita serius tentang hidup gue belakangan ini kapan-kapan deh ya.. #siapajugasihyangpeduli #yakaliajaada

Pertama-tama, perkenalan! Dari kiri ke kanan -dalam kurung adalah nama asli, di depannya stage name-: G-Dragon (Kwon Jiyong), TOP (Choi Seunghyun), Seungri (Lee Seunghyun), Taeyang (Dong Youngbae), Daesung (Kang Daesung).

Ada yang nyangka nggak gue bisa ngefans sama boy band Korea? Gue aja nggak nyangka gue bisa jadi fangirl juga hahaha, tapi lebih nggak nyangka lagi lihat orang-orang di sekitar gue juga sekarang bisa jadi fangirl/fanboy.. Bahkan gue punya temen cowok yang udah lebih gila dari gue (doi ngefans Big Bang juga, sebut nama nggak nih?). Mantep banget lah nih industri musik Korea, sukses besar (setidaknya untuk saat ini) dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangannya (ini juga gatel banget pengen gue omongin, next time deh).

Ok. Big Bang ini bukan idol group pertama yang gue tahu. Di sekitar gue pada muter lagu-lagu Super Junior sama SNSD otomatis gue taunya mereka duluan. Tapi gue nggak pernah ke-hook sama mereka, gue bahkan masih nggak peduli gitu sama Kpop. Sampai akhirnya teman gue mengenalkan gue pada variety show Korea: Running Man. Itu acara sukses bikin gue ngakak guling-guling dan ketagihan (duhai orang-orang yang capek belajar dan bekerja, tontonlah acara ini disini, hidup kalian akan jadi berwarna lagi). Dari acara ini gue jadi kenal sama artis-artis Korea dan MC nya yang dahsyat banget: Yoo Jaesuk. Dari sini juga gue jadi kenal sama acara lain, pendahulu Running Man, yang MC nya Yoo Jaesuk juga: Family Outing! Ini juga bikin ngakak dan nagih banget hahahahah :D Dan dari sini gue jadi tahu Daesung :3

Kalo ada yang menduga kalau gue suka boy bang Korea karena tampangnya... SALAH! Jujur pertama kali gue lihat Daesung gue nggak tahu banget kalo dia itu ternyata anggota boy band. Abis dia wajah-wajah pelawak sejati gitu, lucu banget! Dan beda sama karakter wajah-wajahnya boyband lain gitu. Enggak, bukannya jelek, tapi sebelumnya gue udah kemakan sama stereotype wajah artis-artis Korea. Sampai akhirnya di FO Daesung digodain karena Big Bang baru release hit terbaru mereka: Lies. Penasaran, langsung gue buka Youtube. Dan gue jatuh cinta. #eea

Yang bikin gue suka sama mereka itu awalnya karena musiknya! Lies itu bagus banget dan langsung lah gue penasaran sama lagu-lagu mereka yang lain. Dan nggak sengaja, pas gue nyetel V Channel, lagi ada video klip lagu. Judulnya Tonight, penyanyinya Big Bang. Dan gue langsung terpana gitu video klipnya bagus banget, lagunya bagus banget, dan member nya jadi beda jauh......... Jadi makin ganteng. Silahkan bandingkan sendiri.

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Tapi tetep ya yang paling atraktif dari Big Bang ini ya musiknya. Dan gue makin terpana setelah gue tahu kalo produser Big Bang ini salah satu member mereka sendiri: GD. Oh iya, dia ini leader Big Bang. Jadi ya gitu deh. Musik mereka itu beda sama tipikal-tipikal musik Kpop lainnya. Bukan berarti yang lain itu jelek, lho, tapi Big Bang itu punya karakter musik mereka sendiri. Yang bikin mereka beda dari idol group lain juga kualitas music video mereka. Yah, silahkan cek sendiri di channel Youtube nya BIGBANG. Nikmati musik dan music video-nya!

Buat pemula, gue saranin silahkan dengarkan lagu Blue dulu deh, ini dari album Alive mereka (baru release Februari 2012 loh!). Personally, this is my most favorite track and mv from them. Everything is perfect.

Huhu udah panjang banget ini post, padahal masih banyak juga yang pengen gue share. Pake poin-poin deh kalo gitu.

• Not only a producer, leader, and rapper of the group, GD is also a fashionista. Ampun banget sama satu orang ini. Sejarah rambutnya tak terhingga, sekarang aja rambutnya pink. Bikin syok, tapi pada akhirnya gue hanya bisa bilang "ah.. He's GD." He attended Paris Fashion Week 2012 recently. Front row, baby!
• I don't have bias. But I feel like my heart loves TOP so much lol. GD&TOP collaboration is daebak (this is a sub-unit). GD&TOP Vol. 1 is a masterpiece, love ALL the tracks! And I'm begging for Vol. 2, please T_T
• Reliable international fansite: bigbangupdates :)
• I'm in dilemma. I already purchased a Big Bang concert tix in Jakarta on Oct 13 but I have midterm test on Oct 15 T_T (Roberta, Ave, gimana ini!!!!)
• Taeyang = forever mohawk.
• Daesung is known as smiling angel. He used to be called ugly but NEH. His smile is precious.
• Their fans are called VIP!!!
• The rappers are GD and TOP, the rest of them are vocalists (although sometimes Taeyang raps too). TOP is also an actor and currently he's filming his new movie: Alumni!
• Seungri is the most fluent Japanese speaker *proud proud proud*. And currently he's busy filming in Japan, ALONE :D

Kira-kira begitu deh hahahah :D Terakhir... Inilah list lagu Big Bang terfavorit gue, in random order:

1. Blue

2. Lies

3. Haru Haru

4. Tonight

5. Fantastic Baby

6. My Heaven

7. Baby Goodnight

8. High High

9. Still Alive (DAEBAK!!!!!!)

10. Monster

Gituuuuuuuuuu deh. Bye bye!