All Fake Foes?

I've been spending the night by looking at my old trip photos during high school... while repeating Lydia Paek's cover featuring Tablo of Justin Timberlake's Suit & Tie since... two hours ago? Both versions are nice, but I really like Tablo's own verse. 

Get out your tuxes.
We're what the fuss is all about.
Got haters on our speed dial.
We call em out.

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Started from the bottom, broke as hell.  

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All fake foes.
If you're real, then you're real like a mermaid's toes.
Frankly, in my ocean all you octopussies better swim good. 

There. Do you possess something fake? Anything? Some purses, wallets, shoes, watches.... Friends? Or foes? I've been lingering around, living in this world for almost 18 years, got so many things, many friends, yet I still can't define which is real, which is fake. Friend. Or foes.

Or, have you ever disliked someone but you don't know why? Sometimes you just.. feel it. If it feels wrong, then there must be something wrong. Sometimes you just know. Sometimes there are some reasons, sometimes there's no any. Because sometimes you don't need to have a single reason to dislike someone, because simply you just can't describe how you feel. Or at least, that was what my friend explained to me.

I personally never define someone as a fake friend, but yes I have some who I dislike. But never at the first sight, or from the first impression. I mean how could you dislike someone without knowing him/her quite well first? But it turned out that it's possible... even there's the scientific explanation for that! Or at least, again, that was what my friend told to me. So she said there's this certain chemical substance inside our body (called pheromones, I guess) which has its own compatible match. So then, if ours don't match with someone's, we could have this 'dislike' feels toward them. This is what actually works within our relationships; with our good cliques, boyfriend/girlfriend, wife/husband, enemies, etc. I conclude that it's... possible, but it's all up to us. Maybe our pheromones don't match, so what? Let's make it a match! If, we want to. If, we want to be forever in peace with everything, anywhere and anytime.

Anyhow, I'm grateful that so far I've been surrounded by lovely people and friends, who know me well, who would like to know me first before judging me. Thank you for not being fake. There are some dramas (both important and not) in my life, but that's it. Everyone must have their own drama.. I mean what's life without it? I'm forever grateful that I have some good friends, best friends, who always there for me whenever and wherever I need them. Who have been through the thick and thin of my life along with me. I'm grateful that I've been through some rows, because those show me that sometimes I'm wrong, flawed. That sometimes I need to remind some people that they're, also, wrong, flawed. Show me that life is not all bubbly and happy, and sometimes I just need to face some difficult people in difficult situations.

It's holiday and I just miss my old friends, that's all. I wouldn't miss them this much if we have the same holiday schedule as them but the fact is my campus is the only one which has been in the holiday time already SOOOOO basically we're alone. If only I have a time machine... I would go back to those wonderful times in Magelang, being all silly and happy with my junior high friends. I would go back to those fantastic times in Tanjung Lesung, Thailand, Anyer... Ugh :'(

I miss you guys, and this is true.