Grow Up

Because everything won't be so easy, as easy as it seems. 

Practically, being a college student means living on my own. Transition from teenager to adult. If I'm sick, I'm sick alone. Hungry? My own problem since no one is there to cook me food. Rain season is suddenly becoming my first world's problem. Walking, running under the rain is unavoidable, and shiver comes later. (Not to mention, the time taken to dry my clothes is getting longer. Please.)

Meanwhile, academically, deadline is becoming the worst nightmare. Or should I say, real-life nightmare, since I don't just dream about it. The last week of college has been pretty hectic for us, with all final tasks deadlines and exams came consecutively. I relied on my power of kepepet. This is not so me, to be honest. Now I'm like, oh okay whatever with the results as long as it's finished on time, and I used to be more... perfectionist. The lectures are becoming harder, harder, and harder. I was struggling for a while to adjust with this fast pace of learning in class. When I'm already getting used to it, then I feel like my life is 80% of studying, studying, and studying.

 

It may sounds like I'm complaining, complaining, complaining. But no. I'm so grateful that I'm getting what I've really wanted so bad. Alhamdulillah.  It's just me ranting about how different my life is in college. How difficult it was for me, at first, to be around genius people all day. I've been telling it multiple time, but yeah, I miss the old time. As busy as I was, as bad as my grades were, I've never felt such a big pressure like I sometime feel recently. I miss high school so much. I miss wasting my time in inter lounge, watching random horror movies or Running Man in class, chatting with my teachers, jumping to someone's car and get away from school to TA or CP. Oh, exciting time.

But that is life... right? I am aging, so everything also changes. I'm growing up, so everything also seems becoming more serious to me. Somehow, I feel like another factor why I miss the old time so much is the fact that now I can't joke around as free as I used to do. No more irresponsible me. No more stupid dramas between me and people. This is unavoidable condition that I must go through.. no matter how difficult it is.

Oh, college life. In a speed of light, I'd becoming a career woman, then a wife, then a mother, though. (AMIN)

Oh, time.