BIG DILEMMA

Hello all. If you check my profile out, there's this sentence: debat (padahal pasti kalah) in 'interests' section. I wrote that two years ago, and since that I've never done a single kind of debate competition. At that time my definition of debate was when two people are arguing about something, based on their own opinions, ideas, or thoughts. And now in senior high school, I just latterly knew what is debate actually, and... debate is no longer one of my interests.

I'm in a big dilemma. Yesterday, Mr. Jay, came to the class, talked to Tafya, and 30 minutes later Tafya brought me and Michelle to Mr. Jay, and he just directly told us that he'd enrolled us into a debate competition in Diknas, Province Level, on Monday. As I said before, I'VE NEVER GONE IN A DEBATE COMPETITION. PLUS IT'D BE IN ENGLISH. Coommmeeee oooonnnn a debate?! In English? Me, do the debate thingy?! How would it be if an intimidated person go in a debate?! (Ok the term intimidated is just a simplest word the describe my, err well if you know me well you'll understand. It's not that kind of 'intimidated', no, but it's like... yea... ah whatever!) I'm just... too nervous and soooooo not confident and ready to face this competition. Do I have the capability to do this? I believe Michelle does, I have trust and confident in her, I'm just worried I'd be embarrassing myself in public on Monday. Dear God, please help me to not letting that be happen.

A big dilemma. Maybe I and Michelle could just tell Mr. Jay that we won't do this, because, well we don't think we can't... But how exactly?! Plus we have Mr. Sapto on Monday, he'll discuss the exercises he gave us today as preparation for a quiz on Wed, and we have Maam Anggun who'll hand out our retake. Actually I decided to not telling my Mom about this. But yeah, I just told her by phone, and as I expected, she's excited. And of course she didn't let me giving up and just walk out. Truthfully, I'm not ready and if I could turning back the time, I would tell Tafya to not mentioning my name when Mr. Jay asked her. There would be no problem right now, and I can just concentrate on my quizzes... and homework. *sigh*

I just need something to boost my confident. And maybe something that could help me to enrich my vocab and fix my grammar in a flash time?

P.S: Chelsea won their 4th UCL match last night against Spartak Moscow! The Blues cruise into knockout stages! Sooo grateful, and what a goal from Anelka from the 'impossible' angle! And a lovely one from Ivanovic that wrapped the match!

It's a draw in San Siro, AC Milan vs Real Madrid: 2 - 2. A late goal from Pedro saved Madrid, and the controversial one from Inzaghi saved Milan. Maybe his second goal was actually an offside goal, but this 37 years old male still has a speed like he's 27. He deserved the standing ovations and the MOTM tag last night. And hoo yah! Madrid goes to the big 16!

And so happy for the reborn of Gomez: hattrick in UCL! A very good improvement from him. Be consistent, Gomez, do not let anything barricade you to be on top form with Munchen. 0-4 against Cluj brought them to the knockout stages!